Old Beginnings

My husband and I have a lot of goals.

Unfortunately, most of those goals revolve around going to bed early and waking up early.

Some other goals include eating healthy food, developing a good budget, and actually exercising or at least doing something besides walking from the couch to the fridge.

Seeing all of this written down makes me kind of feel like a bum.  I can just see you saying in your brain, “So.  You sleep late, you spend your money poorly, and you’re unhealthy?”

Not quite. It’s not that bad. Maybe.

I mean, when you have kids, sleeping late doesn’t really exist.  I still get up at 7 or 7:30 AM every day.  BUT, I would really like to get up an hour and a half before the kids and go on a run, shower, read some scriptures and pray, and make a good healthy breakfast BEFORE the children wake up.

I know this is possible because we did it, at least twice haha. Maybe even for a week. I can’t remember.  It’s been a while…

Regardless, this brings me back around to my point.  Old beginnings.  It seems like we have tried a thousand times to “get on a good schedule.”  We have started this worn out resolution over and over and still can’t seem to stick with it.  We’ve revamped our plans and tweaked the details and tried to be realistic with ourselves and our time.  And yet each time, it fails. We either set our expectations too high or circumstances change or we just stop caring enough to tough it out when it gets hard.

It’s been really hard on us to fail so consistently at these goals that are so good and worthy of our time.

However, I have been blessed by two different experiences recently that have helped my perspective.

Experience #1:

In April 2016, Elder Jeffrey R. Holland gave a talk in the General Conference for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, (you can find the whole talk here) and in his talk, he said this:

“With the gift of the Atonement of Jesus Christ and the strength of heaven to help us, we can improve, and the great thing about the gospel is we get credit for trying, even if we don’t always succeed.”

This talk made me realize that I need to stop beating myself up for not being perfect, and that God is happy when we try to do His will and keep His commandments. The key is that we have to keep trying, and keep working on improving.  We need to rely on Jesus Christ to change our natures.  We need to get up when we fall.  We can’t just be satisfied with how we are.  We can’t be apathetic about our faults, but we also can’t focus on them too much.  God loves us regardless of our imperfections, and we need to love Him enough to do His will in the best way that we can. Mistakes will happen but we can’t give up, because He doesn’t give up on us.

Experience #2:

In church on Sunday, one of the speakers told a story that made me realize that my desires matter more than my circumstances. What DO I want? Do I actually want to get up early, or do I actually just want to sleep all day? Do I actually want to eat healthily, or would I rather not give up no-bake cookies? Do I actually want to be active and fit, or am I content with being pretty sedentary? In trying to explain to my husband about my thoughts on the subject, I came across this great quote.

“If you really want to do something, you’ll find a way. If you don’t, you’ll find an excuse.” -Jim Rohn

This is really profound. Seriously. Think about it.  So, I’ve decided that I need to stop analyzing my actual problems for a little while and analyze my desires. Because if I actually want to be healthy, I’ll put in the time for it, even when there doesn’t seem to be any time available. If I actually want to renovate my home, I will make it happen. If I actually want to be a good wife or be on time or be happy or learn how to make Taco Bell burritos (although that may go against my health goals…), I will find a way to do that.

Let’s change our desires so that we stop making excuses and make things happen.

Welcome to us.  We are working at our old goals, and starting at our old beginnings.

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